Friday, March 5, 2010

Feelings of Guilt

Do you ever just want to run away?

I'm having one of those days. Under appreciated and Fed-up. I'd like to do a New York job search just to go for a couple days and get away from the noise. I don't really want to live in NY, but a vacation, alone, might be nice...and Hubster keeps hinting about me getting a job.

It's no one's fault, really. I'm still feeling like dirt and screaming kids at 7:00 in the morning, coupled with Hubster upset because they woke him up is a little too much to bare right now. I'm supposed to be on my way to Raleigh to take care of my brother who was supposed to have surgery this morning. It got postponed to next week and I'm feeling a little anxious that I won't be able to help him out. Hubster took today and Monday off so I could go this week but now it's not happening. He can't take the days off next week so I'm kinda stuck. All this together has me a little short tempered and unsympathetic to the needs of my family. I'll shake it off.

I always end up feeling guilty when I'm short with the kids. Not that at times they don't bring it on themselves. I'm just usually such a laid back person that I know it must seem to come out of nowhere to them. What's good one day sends me over the edge on days like today. Should I try to hide my true emotions (as if I think before I explode)? Or is it good for them to see that Mommy has feelings too? Do I need to explain why I might be a little short tempered? I usually like to, to ease my guilt, after I've calmed back down and assessed the situation. How do you handle it?
Posted by Rachele at 8:08 AM
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  1. Well we all know that you are a more laid back parent and person than I am. But I think that you should not hold it in. Kids need to know that everyone has feelings including mom and that things that they have done have upset you. And maybe a little explanation of why you are short tempered....but a little. You are the mom and they need to respect and listen to what you want them to do.

    Rikki
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  2. I don't think my first comment went through. If it did, I'm sorry this is a duplicate.

    We all have those days. Usually while I'm feeling guilty my children have aleady moved on and have forgotten about it. I hope things work out for you next week.
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  3. I lost my temper with Ben last night, too. Funny, maybe the moon and stars weren't in good positions this week or something, b/c I've also been feeling stressed and without enough outlet. Hang in there Rachele. You're a great mom and like Elle said, they'll probably shake it off much more quickly than you will. There's no harm in just saying, "Sometimes I feel angry and frustrated and I yell. But, I always love you. I'm sorry." Kids are very forgiving. The important thing is that you set the example of taking responsibility for your feelings and your actions and treat them with the respect that you hope they'll learn to treat others with. :o)
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  4. Well we all know that you are a more laid back parent and person than I am. But I think that you should not hold it in. Kids need to know that everyone has feelings including mom and that things that they have done have upset you. And maybe a little explanation of why you are short tempered....but a little. You are the mom and they need to respect and listen to what you want them to do.

    Rikki
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Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

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